Category: CAMEOS


Whew! I have been studying full-time for a while now,
but after just one week of part-time work for my internship,
I realize that boy, have I missed it!

I have missed the vibe of the workplace, the atmosphere of an office,
and even – believe it or not – the small talk
that gets us by on a daily basis with co-workers.


Yep, that’s the workaholic in me being reawakened.
And now that I am slowly forming a picture of where I want to be
in the next few years and who I want to become, I think it will be easier
to chart a game plan – if you may – and list the steps, tasks, and new habits
I have to establish. And boy oh boy, there is a ton of work to do!

What does that have to do with summer? Nothing, of course,
except that it was really warm here in San Francisco last weekend
and I snatched the opportunity to hang out at Dolores Park with a friend.
Next time, I will bring a book, relax, and thoroughly enjoy the sun.

There will come a time that I will bring my own dog, and even, who knows,
somebody with whom I can share the light, the shade, and the seasons with.

Uniqlo tee, shirt, and jeans; Dr Martens boots

Menswear style photo at Pier 14

Eight months since my last post – even I can’t believe it. Did you miss me?

In all honesty, I wasn’t even supposed to write this –
what with all the things going on with school, my internship, and stealing time
to read and get to know San Francisco and a few new friends more intimately –
but serendipity has had its way of convincing me otherwise.

Close-up of clothes

You must excuse my chubby cheeks. I blame stress eating
from the hundreds of pages of articles I have had to read.
(Not that I didn’t enjoy them. I find myself too much of a nerd not to indulge.)

But just like this cute banana logo on this unassuming striped tee, surprises can be refreshing.
I haven’t written for so long that I didn’t know I missed it.

Adidas Stan Smiths

What I have discovered most in this mostly sunny, foggy, and windy city
is that I have clipped my wings far too long. But at the same time,
I am always running the risk of getting flung too far from my set horizon.

It has taken me great courage to come here.
The expanse dividing land and sea keeps on changing
and I can only oblige and do the same.

Uniqlo tee, puffer vest, pile-lined sweater, and jeans;
Adidas Stan Smith sneakers; belt from an Italian market


While contemplating the gloom of days and months past,
the morning’s fresh rays of sun force me to look up.


It is much easier to let ourselves be drowned by the weather, dulled by inertia into inaction.


But now the days are numbered, and I must move on.


There is no machine quite like boredom and emotion to force us to scrape off accumulated rust.


I’ll be a student again soon! Who would have known?


I only decided early this February, out of panic, that something must be done.


And here I am, scrambling to pack my bags.


As always, I’ll see you when I see you.


Whoever you are, my dear reader, all these years of rambling.

Uniqlo sweater tee and jeans, Adidas sneakers, Penguin tote
Photography by Jullian Mendoza

London in spring

Two of my colleagues were scolding me for not taking touristy pictures
in front of the sites and places I visited and frequented in London.

London in spring

I even brought a tripod, which I wasn’t even able to fully utilize
(used it once, but I wasn’t satisfied so I gave up).
All I have are these random selfies in front of an unidentifiable mirror.

London in spring

Can you blame me if my penchant for anonymity kicked in,
if I preferred to savor experiences and stored them in my memory instead of on Instagram
(though, I did take photos on my visual diary IG account).

London in spring

But you know, during my most memorable moments in London
(this was my first time to go there),
I had to follow my instinct and put the camera down.
Who knows where the impressions I have stored will turn up?
In words, in poetry, who can tell?
But most certainly they have altered the way I see (through) things.

Uniqlo puffer, sweater, and shirt


Well, hello. It’s been almost two months.
Time surely flies especially when you’ve invested yourself in a change of plan.


I’m less than one week away from my first international flight this year. Of course, I’m giddy.


But what I am more excited/apprehensive about is the arrival (or not)
of news that will hopefully change the course of this path.


These cameos were taken weeks ago, which, as always, feel a lifetime away.
As before, I have had just had my hair cut.


I have put so many things on hold for a fling of fate.


I hope things work out.


A change of scene has been long overdue.


In the midst of it all, things haven’t appeared to have undergone any transformation.


That’s why I am worried. The healthy are wary of the sick,
the same way that the active avoid atrophy. Wish me luck!

Uniqlo t-shirt and jeans, belt from an Italian market, 5cm bomber jacker, Dr Martens shoes, Tissot watch
Cameo photographs by Jullian Mendoza