Rainy days like Sundays

CAMEOS

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_01
 

To be accurate, these pictures were really taken on a Saturday, weeks ago.
But it did rain yesterday, a Monday, and the weather has been unpredictable the past few weeks.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_02
 

Started my annual stay-at-home vacation yesterday to catch up on my reading and writing,
and the usual tidying up of the year’s loose ends.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_03
 

Facing up to the promises I made myself last January, it’s easy to get depressed.
There never really seems to be enough time to do the things I set up myself to do.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_04
 

But on the bright side – the place where you’ll usually find me – I did rehash this page and my visual diary,
set up a portfolio site, and am in the process of relaunching my accessories web page with e-commerce capabilities.
No mean feat, admittedly, but of course all this is just part of the transition to better things ahead.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_05
 

Which should be read, yes, as: there is even more work to do.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_06
 

But the hardest part, the most difficult task for me, is the one that appears the most daunting.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_07
 

That amidst all of the commotion of self-set deadlines
(not to mention the external distraction that is the Christmas season),
there is the personal commitment to continually learn and relearn the habit of silence.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_08
 

Seems impossible, no?
Enough, I say – especially with the need and the compulsion to socially engage – to drive one insane.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_09
 

How to depart exactly at the point of each arrival?
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_10
 

How to look back as one is forced to look ahead?
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_11
 

Sounds like the perfect aesthetic premise, if you asked me.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_12
 

On top of the things I’ve already mentioned, I have also been setting reading projects for myself.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_13
 

In 2015, after years of struggle, I was able to finally finish reading and re-reading the poetry of Odysseus Elytis.
This year, Eugenio Montale and Bienvenido Lumbera, and am now digging through the work of Virgilio Almario
and Derek Walcott. (Nearly done with Gabriel García Márquez.)
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_14
 

The books sitting on the shelves in my room are enough to bury me alive,
but it is even harder to find my own voice in the rubble.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_15
 

Nothing to do but start, yeah? Begin, make mistakes, persevere.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_16
 

Cling to one’s own clarity of purpose.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_17
 

Hopefully, before I start traveling the country (yet another plan),
I hope to finish reading all about Philippine folk literature.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_18
 

But before that, back to silence.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_19
 

Back to the pages, back to the days and the hours and the minutes. The sea, the sky, and the rain.
 

El-Bosquejo_Cameo_120616_20
 

Who knows what I’ll be blabbering about the next time I come around talking about grand schemes.
 

Folded and Hung pullover, Uniqlo jeans, Dr Martens boots

Photography by Jullian Mendoza

Share on FacebookTweet about this on TwitterShare on Google+Pin on PinterestShare on Tumblr

2 comments

  1. Bayle says:

    Does your website have a contact page? I’m having a tough time locating it but, I’d like to shoot you an e-mail. I’ve got some reoncmendatioms for your blog you might be interested in hearing. Either way, great site and I look forward to seeing it develop over time.

  2. I just want to say I’m all new to blogs and absolutely savored this blog. Almost certainly I’m likely to bookmark your website . You actually have perfect articles and reviews. With thanks for sharing with us your website page.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *